BECAUSE TIME FLIES & MEMORIES FADE...

When I was putting all the little details of  my photography business together

I had to come up with things like a business name and a tag line to go with it.

"Because time flies & memories fade.." became mine for a very special reason.

As Mother's Day Nears I have been thinking a lot about my mom.

I think a lot about her each and every day. 

My mom had lung cancer at 65 yrs young,  and it metabolized in the brain as well.  She went through radiation treatments prior to her departure for wintering in Florida.  We spoke on the phone often that winter when she came back in the spring her cancer had spread and was going to begin chemo on mothers day. 

This mothers day will be two years since I quit my jobs &  left South Dakota & my family to go back home to  Minnesota to be with my mom on that mothers day. ( our last together) long story short I ended up staying with my mom for the next 8 months.  I am forever grateful to my family for the gift they gave me of letting me go live with my mom and care for her full time.

During that time I of course had my camera gear and asked my mom to sit for a portrait we had plenty of "snap shots" of mom and all of us from over the years but nothing formal.  Of course she had no hair and wore a wig but my mom for the first time in my life showed a little vanity and refused to have a picture taken until her hair grew back.

Of course we all believed she would beat the cancer and  I would hold her too her promise of a formal portrait.  I continued to take "snap shots" as the days , weeks and months went by.  But we never got that formal portrait taken and on this mothers day that is all I can think about how time flies by and when they are gone some memories are so faded away you can only remember bits n pieces.  Pictures I have plenty and I cherish each and every one of them as they help me to remember all the good times I had with her and most importantly " how she used to look"

Cancer and it's treatments distorts more than just the body of the cancer victim it also distorts our memories. My mom was hardly recognizable in the end and after being her full time caregiver for 8 months it was hard for me in my mind to remember exactly how she used to look as I had gotten so used to seeing the cancer. 

Me and mom (our last time out to dinner Oct 09)

Our last mother's day together at her lake home in MN

I thank god each and every day for all the pictures I have to help me to see her face again when I close my eyes and think of her.  But I will forever regret never having a formal portrait of my mom.

My little studio is dedication to my mother, to help others capture their loved ones and memories before time fades them away.  My mom and my grandma both gave up living their dreams and it is because of them that I am now living mine.  Happy mother's day to you mom and Grandma.. I love and miss you both so much!

Because time flies & memories fade...

 

  my mom Diane Just before cancer treatments